My heart aches whenever I think about you. It makes me feel like a ship sinking in the ocean, and I am watching it from the shore. My mind runs in every direction, looking for a way to make your life a little less painful. I want to do something for you, anything, even the smallest thing that might make you smile or forget your pain for a moment.
But deep down, I know these small things will not fix your life. No matter how hard you try to be strong and normal. I know you are broken from the inside. And it breaks my heart into pieces. I can’t stand to see you like this. I want the best for you. I wish for a miracle that could make everything right again.
When you’re in pain, I feel like throwing away every bit of happiness, blessing, and love I have. How can I be happy when sadness wraps itself around you?
Maybe it’s my fault. Maybe I haven’t done enough. Maybe I could have tried harder. From the very beginning, all I ever wanted was to protect you — to keep you safe. But now, you’re hurting, and I’m standing here, helpless and powerless.
And I think this is the misery of life that even after loving you so much, I still can’t do anything to take away your pain. I can’t live their battles for them. I can’t save them from what life demands them to face. I think this is how life works. This is why we are all alone, even when we are together.
But still, I want you to know that you are not alone. Maybe I am not able to do things for you, solve your problems, and ease your pain, but I am always there for you. Whenever you fall, I’ll be there to hold you. Whenever you feel suffocated, I’ll be there to listen to you. I’ll hold your hand and not let you get lost in this world.
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