My heart aches whenever I think about you. It feels like watching a ship sink in the ocean, and I’m standing helplessly on the shore. My mind runs in every direction, trying to find a way to make your life a little less painful. I want to do something for you, anything, even the smallest thing that might make you smile or forget your pain for a moment.
But deep down, I know these little things can’t fix your life. No matter how hard you try to stay strong or act normal, I can see the cracks inside you. And it breaks my heart into pieces. I can’t stand to see you like this. I want the best for you. I wish for a miracle that could make everything right again.
When you’re in pain, I feel like throwing away every bit of happiness, blessing, and love I have. How can I be happy when sadness wraps itself around you?
Maybe it’s my fault. Maybe I haven’t done enough. Maybe I could have tried harder. From the very beginning, all I ever wanted was to protect you — to keep you safe. But now, you’re hurting, and I’m standing here, helpless and powerless.
And that’s the misery of love that even after giving everything, you still can’t take someone’s pain away. You can’t live their battles for them. You can’t save them from what life demands them to face. That’s how it works, this strange truth of being human. We are all alone, even when we’re together.
But still, I want you to know this: you are not alone. Maybe I can’t solve your problems or take away your pain, but I am here. Always. When you fall, I’ll be there to hold you. When you feel suffocated, I’ll listen. I’ll hold your hand and make sure you never get lost in this world.
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